Yep, that's right. It's cold, in July, here in my room, snuggle on my bed, with the AC blasting! Today's sort of lazy, sort of -- it's so hot I've brought my work in here & am mainly working online today. I've been in the process of cleaning my home, organizing & getting rid of STUFF. But it's kind of hot to work today, so I'm listing some of that stuff on Ebay right now.
It's amazing the stuff that you have & don't need. I think I've grown alot over the last few years either that or my husband's we-don't-use-that-get-rid-of-it mentality has slowly worn off on me. I was never a hoarder. But I did save some things, thinking, maybe I'll use, fit it, whatever it, (fatal word) someday. And even though I would look at it and know, someday may never come, it used to scare me to throw it out or Goodwill it. I don't know what that was, fear of regret? What if I need it after-all? What if I end up having to buy one later?! Is it wasteful to get rid of it? I don't know. But now, a few years later, it feels good to get rid of stuff, & it doesn't scare me any more. Maybe I've become more realistic? As I clean out, I'm seeing items that I literally can't use & know I never will, guess what? Yardsale & Ebay baby, comin' right up.
Not only do I feel great just for getting rid of stuff that I would ordinarily have kept, un-used, for years. But I am more efficiently able to organize what I do have & do use, because now... what is this, it's SPACE! There is more space to put things away. And when you're cleaning & organizing, even if you didn't get rid of stuff, you realize how much space is wasted because it's not being put away in an effective manner, wow.
So what are those red hot shoes up there for? Those lovelies represent a milestone. I just realized what it is: no longer having to keep things because if I get rid of it, I have to admit something about myself, a failure maybe, or even death of a dream or goal no matter how simple. I LOVE those shoes. Love them. I bought them before I got married to ad some sass to my wardrobe. Never got to wear them. I had fractured one of my big toes & didn't know. Not that there's much you could do for it. But once it healed, the joint area was bigger because of bone scarring and the tendons don't stretch the way they did. So guess what? No more snug closed toed or high heeled shoes, ever. Never ever. So I kept these stunning red heels for 3 years thinking, maybe....... but it's not to be. And now, I can let them go & be ok with that, knowing what it means. Anyway, that's my thought for today:) Gotta get back to it.
P.S. Now the question is, do I need to let go of my pilates machine?! Or will that be another blog post later down the line? We'll see ;-)
